My hope!!

My hope...is just as simple....


I am so simple...
Hope to have a simple life..
Hope to smile everyday...
Be happy...


Today....something happened...
I really hope it will not happened...
Because I tell myself not going to care what I knew...
But why I can't do that...
Is just very simple...close my eyes...
without seeing anything...
close my ears without hearing anything....


Just simple...
Can you all respect me...b4 you all done anything...
Can you all just think b4 u did everything in your...life...
I am just a human being....
I am not a god...
I will be tired....
Tired until I really can't say...how tired am I...
Thinking to stop my job....
because I m tired...


Even as a friend....
sometimes will make me tired and crazy!!
Do you think u pay a lot for me....
As you scold me....do u think twice...!!
how are u going to scold me I really can get into my mind....
And without delete...it!!
I am not angry but I need to accept...because u are my friend and who is the one just pay me every month....
Friend...I taught your son...pls don't say that ...just because you do not know english and Bm...therefore you not knowing that I am teaching or not.....!!
Pls .....do not say it again to others teacher...
you really will hurt someone...


Tired....really tired!!


Something...I am so appreciated ...
because I have it...
I am so happy...
but it really take time to change...
sometime I tell myself...
Is my problem..??
or I m still not doing that good??
Maybe I am too force...what I want it to change...
Somebody can tell me...
what shall I do...


I really "failure" in my life...
someone I am happy with...
I still can't get it what I want....


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Feeling vexed!! In these few months!! I had try my very best!!

Vexed.....vexed....vexed!!


Try not to type my blog...again!!
But at last....I have too....
Maybe this is the best way...
Try my very best to overcome....let down ....everything...
But...the problem sometimes will happen again...!!
That's why...my mood..." up.....and....down"


I also can't imagine why my mood will be in this way!!
Even moody until....I get my headache..back in these few month!!
Headache is the worse thing in my life....!!


Always can't understand by others...even I 'm doing my very best!!
Nobody will be understand my situation...
Shall I put it a side....who is not understand...me or my situation...
Shall I be myself.....and not going to bother....whatever happen surrounding me...!
Can I do that!!
I can totally saying....I can't because I had try it.....!!


There is a lot of people telling me..that just let go whoever that is not cherish...u!!
Is this true....??
Shall I do that??
If I am doing this...can I be happy??


Even my "Ah di " always advised me..not to think too much!!
I am so happy because he know what am I thinking...
He always worrying....
But I had try my very best!!
"Ah di" you are one of the people who is so worrying by me....
no matter how old u are!!
He always listening what am I going to tell him...
I know he can understand what am I telling him....
But I also know he is trying his very best....
These few months ....
He was the one accompanied me....
listening , chatting , enjoying.....together!!
I really hope as a "jiejie" to him ....can really bring happiness to him..
Maybe I can't give 100 % happiness to him....but at least I can give 50% happiness...
Thx " Ah di " who always giving me problem that I can show how to be a good "jiejie"
I am not the best.....jiejie....
But I will be a good...one because this is my responsible!!
To find a person who really understand ourselves are totally difficult...
As " ah di " of mine who really so understand me...
sometimes without saying out ...he already knowing what am I thinking or worrying about...!!
Ah di ,don't angry with what I am telling here...!!
I am not sharing u out to people....
I just want to say how's my feeling to u and appreciated to u!!
Thx "ah di".....


Even I  laugh myself....
because some of my students will ask me " Miss Chan " why u look moody today....
I will just answer them " nolah,Miss Chan is ok"
So they are so funny....and believe what am I telling them...
They are really " naive"...
But anyway....they are really good also because at least some of my students knowing and care for me...


Oklah...!!
Hopefully..everything will be good....!!
After I am posting out this blog...!!
Just post out all my unhappiness...!!
May bring a wonderful luck to me!!

Tired...5 more days to go...yahoo...CNY is coming!!

Happy with my housework....!!
In this blog...I am using this CNY song.....bcs when I was cleaning my house I was listening to this song....
Feeling comfort.....let go my stress......
Have the feeling to welcome.....CNY!!
At  last Saturday night.....going out again....with my di....( hahaha..buying hamper...and some CNY decoration....really funny...!!
After buying all the things.....
really tired....out from the shopping....
"Yam Cha" at a Mamak stall......hehehehe....wonderful Saturday night...!!
My di....really funny...sometime make me angry...but sometime so funny.....really can't imagine....!!


Take 2 days for my cleaning....
really tired.........
but still not complete....
Hahahaha......really slow...!!
But I gonna complete my second floor.....these few days....
If not I have no time to complete....
Yahooooooooo.....I must gambateh....!!
Normally I clean my house every week.....
why I still have a lot of things to clean during CYN is coming....!!
really not understand.......!!

Bekcik............!!




With my cleaning....
I just knew that I have a lot of old things....to throw...it away...
some have to  recycle it....
some really not willing to throw...it...
But at last.....
no choice have to throw......


hahahaha.....
For my 1st day...cleaning...
woke up early....
Just to clean up "altar"
almost take 4 to 5 hours


After cleaning up the "altar"
hahahaha...
going for pedicure.....
lol..........already make appointment.......
but gonna wait....almost 45 minutes.....
really waste my time....
but anyway...I was complete my pedicure....


After pedicure.......
going to my little brother.....(my di).....house...
to collect.....CNY (biscuit)
Have to send it out....for my relative.....
really busy...but happy!!




My second....day for cleaning!!


woke up early also....
because planning after half day cleaning....gonna out....
really tired....have to relax.....
hehehe....
at 12pm.....finished my cleaning....
answering my phone call.....
calling from " my di"
Hahahaha.....me really happy....leh!!!
when I answering his call.....
1st time....my di....calling me " hello my sister"
really touching....
hahahaha...because he will not doing that in his life...!!
my di so funny !!
make me happy for the whole day....hehehehe...
Going out again....
buying...and changing ....
ate our lunch at a Japanese restaurant.....
hehehehe.....
always not eating vege.....
but at last my di....try 1 of  it....!!
yahoooo.....!!
hehehehe....
so funny....
after buying , changing  n eating....
back home............!!
Tired.....


These are my cleaning and funny life for these 3 days....
enjoy.....!!


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happy and unhappy....in this few weeks...!!

My mood.....!!
Really do not know how to imagine my feeling..??
I also do not know how to say about  my mood....in these few weeks....!!
Sometimes I am so happy...with what I do....anything that I do I really not regret at all...because with what I did I felt happy...........
But sad to say  when comes to the reality......I just knowing that the world is so colorful ....
Colorful....until I really can't accept myself...!!
With what I knew....
As a human being.....always act “double sided"
Isn't human being really needs to act " double sided "
If " yes" this is very dangerous.....and I really scare to face all those kind of person...!!


Sometimes I am thinking to do my very best......!!
But why there is a different at the end....!!
Maybe there is a false on my own...!!
Or maybe I should not think to get what I wish to have at the end.....
And I need to know it myself maybe there is something different at the end...!!
That's why I need to learn from now .....
To accept what will happen in the end...


When I began my work in January 2012....
I can say that ....
I feel vexed....moody...
because something happened....
all the things .....
really make me feeling vexed....
from some of the students,employee even some of my unreasonable student's parents...
I can't understand....
why always I am the person to make way for them....
But they will not put me in the 1st place.....
Always I am the one to change all the time...if I can't...they will just choose the other way to go....
Is this really equitable to me....!!
Why don't they not thinking that I already arrange all the things....
If any changing...why am I the want who need to do so.......
Why don't u all put me in the 1st place...and ask the other teacher to make way....!!
Really feel disappointed with what they did to me...!!
when there is a require...I will lend a hand to help...but at last....I feel sad and disappointed....


Although there are something unhappy in this month...
but there are something I feel happy...too!!
The most happy days.....for these few weeks ....
Just past few days....{it happened in 3 days time}
Tired,laughing,enjoy,piffle each other...
Is really enjoyable....because I am happy with what I did....
no regret......!! feel really proud....
Really can't imagine how is my feeling....really wonderful...!!
hahahaha.....
because this person really funny....
with the care....I can feel it in deep....
when I m sad,unhappy,happy.....
this is one of the person who can really feel it in deep...!!
Really touching....
I really appreciated to my own  god....
given me such a wonderful...person...!!
For me .....this person...really really useful and wonderful....!!
no matter what happen I will stand the right to care for this person..!!


Hopefully.....after Chinese New Year....!!
Everything will go smooth....
And hope not to have any vexed..that make my head ....pain!!
really hate to swallow all the medicine.....which I stopped longtime ago...!!


Really hope to calm myself down....
May happiness  bring  me up 1 day....

To have my sweet smile back....!!
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明天会更好！！

wonderful shopping .....!!

3rd days shopping!!


Just a simple post...!!
Happy Monday mood...!!
Wake u early in the morning....!
Start my journey...!!
Drive my car to "Pavillon"
Just to find something to my little brother!!


"Siew ye zhai".....hahahaha....
hahahaha.....What I can't  say already say them out to my little brother... today!!
hehehehe...nevermindlah...!!
only one time...." lie"....hehehehe....
as long as I know that he is happy with what I did....
hahaha...but what I do already success ....and really make both of us...happy!!


With my "Siew ye Zhai"smiling.....really sweet
really can see that he is happy with what I bought...
hopefully my idea...really make him happy in his heart....


What he wears damm....handsome...
Really a wonderful ...."siew ye zhai"
others......out....
only the brand that I found....really wonderful for him....
really can't imagine....hehehehe...


Anyway walking with him....
wondering around to find what he wants...
really funny...
lihat mukanya yang kekecewaan memang lucu...sekali...macam budak kecil....yang belum dapat beli barang....
when I looking at his happy smiling....really sweet and cool....
really enjoy with him.....so much!!


hehehehe.....!! appreciate to any want who think of us and make us happy!! ^_^


No matter what we do ,don't regret...
because what we do there is a person will accept it!!


So I trust to myself.....
whatever I did...is no regret and all from my heart...!


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 happy Monday!

Feeling is that we can't control and always deep inside,,,,!! I have a sweet feeling today!!

Happy memories...!! 2 days shopping....just because buying New Year clothes for my little brother...hehehehe...!!

hahahaha...me already really become a sister...loh!!

what I hope really.....comes truth!!

I really have the chance to buy things for my little brother.....!!

Really happy to buy things for my little brother.....maybe some of the people will think I m crazy...but I am happy......^_^ !!

I was very happy too...because I can't imagine that I can find the things that he wants....

Actually this is what I so worry about because I scare I can't be a good sister...to find what he wants!!

B4 going I kept on finding which type of clothes suitable for him....!!

hahaha...at last I was finding....1 of the brand...but I didn't want to tell him.....because I know...he will bising bising until I am so bekcik............! hahahaha....

Anyway I don't bother...him...!!!hahahaha.....

yahoooooooo....happy!!

1st day shopping.....just window shopping look around....

I was trying to look around whether can find what I want............

hehehehe...........

Is very lucky that ....I found...when my little brother get into the toilet....

but too bad .....no size for his body.....sad....go home!!

Yahooooooooooooooooo..............

But I know my little brother will like them very much....

At last when he saw it,he really like them so much....

when I know that he likes them....I also feel happyyyyy....!

hahahaha.....I am happy by walking around really feeling very close...just like my real brother....lying down on my shoulder.....!! this was the feeling that I really happy.....!!

2nd days shopping

start our shopping at midvalley

can't find my shop....

but still can buy something....there

at last I had an idea by going back to 1 utama.......

That's why I promise to myself.....if  I can't find at midvalley.....I will really  back to 1 utama to buy ....

Because I know he likes them so much.......

Just because he was worrying about the money.............

This I also know it so much....

hahahaha.....but when he try them out....lol...really look like " Siew ye zhai""......I like it...leh!! ^_^

This is what I 100% happy.....damm lengzai.....Siew ye zhai!! HAHAHAHAHA.....!!

damm....nice ,pretty and handsome...........

happy ^_^ !!

I really have the chance to be a responsible sister...!!

Really appreciate what I have ....because although he did not saying out...

I know he is so care for me....

what u say I also get it....don't think too much....

Your heart always have this sister I am so happy...jor!!

so my little brother gonna learn.....to appreciate ...loh!! But don't regret...orrh!!

Me myself to have u as my little brother without regret...!!

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Just a simple post...because happy!!

without regret....~~

How wonderful in our life is depend on ourselves !!

Wonderful life!!


Wonderful life doesn't means that we are rich so we have a wonderful life !!
To have a wonderful life......is that we face a lot of problem , challenge..and we get what we want..!!
The most important thing is always remember how to appreciate..!!..
Last time I was the 1 who did not know how to appreciate...but slowly I learn why must we appreciate??...when I got the answer ,I learned to appreciate to others....
Sometimes we are facing a lot of problem and challenge...but when we have the willpower to overcome it.....it will bring the happiness to us!!
Therefore we must always tell ourselves when facing any challenge we need to have the strong willpower...
To control ourselves as to overcome it .....!!


As for me...I really face a lot of problem....in my life!!
But I tell myself,I need to overcome it....
When the problem had been overcome....
This means you already grow up once again....
The fall is pain but without the pain we will not get up once....!!


So I always tell myself...
whatever things happen ....
just feel sad and hurt....
for some days.....
because when we angry ,sad....
is just hurting ourselves...!!


Therefore..
when we borned  to live in this world....
we already know we have to face a lot of challenge....
so I will remind myself...to be happy always!!


Hahahaha...I just get back some of my memories....
which is very sweet.....
With this memories...I was thinking back a lot of things...which is meaningful to me....!!^_^
So I am so happy..............!!^_^
At least today I really voice out which already put inside my heart and thinking that it will not have the chance to voice out!!
This memories already inside my heart since few years ago...hahahaha.....^_^
hehehehe....  ^_^


Therefore I choose to be a teacher as my job is hoping that I can help out all the students...
To teach them moral value....as being a good human one day.
Hopefully I can done it..!!


Just a simple post for me....^_^
because suddenly feel happy with my memories....
so trying to drop a simple happy post.
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