happy and unhappy....in this few weeks...!!

My mood.....!!
Really do not know how to imagine my feeling..??
I also do not know how to say about  my mood....in these few weeks....!!
Sometimes I am so happy...with what I do....anything that I do I really not regret at all...because with what I did I felt happy...........
But sad to say  when comes to the reality......I just knowing that the world is so colorful ....
Colorful....until I really can't accept myself...!!
With what I knew....
As a human being.....always act “double sided"
Isn't human being really needs to act " double sided "
If " yes" this is very dangerous.....and I really scare to face all those kind of person...!!


Sometimes I am thinking to do my very best......!!
But why there is a different at the end....!!
Maybe there is a false on my own...!!
Or maybe I should not think to get what I wish to have at the end.....
And I need to know it myself maybe there is something different at the end...!!
That's why I need to learn from now .....
To accept what will happen in the end...


When I began my work in January 2012....
I can say that ....
I feel vexed....moody...
because something happened....
all the things .....
really make me feeling vexed....
from some of the students,employee even some of my unreasonable student's parents...
I can't understand....
why always I am the person to make way for them....
But they will not put me in the 1st place.....
Always I am the one to change all the time...if I can't...they will just choose the other way to go....
Is this really equitable to me....!!
Why don't they not thinking that I already arrange all the things....
If any changing...why am I the want who need to do so.......
Why don't u all put me in the 1st place...and ask the other teacher to make way....!!
Really feel disappointed with what they did to me...!!
when there is a require...I will lend a hand to help...but at last....I feel sad and disappointed....


Although there are something unhappy in this month...
but there are something I feel happy...too!!
The most happy days.....for these few weeks ....
Just past few days....{it happened in 3 days time}
Tired,laughing,enjoy,piffle each other...
Is really enjoyable....because I am happy with what I did....
no regret......!! feel really proud....
Really can't imagine how is my feeling....really wonderful...!!
hahahaha.....
because this person really funny....
with the care....I can feel it in deep....
when I m sad,unhappy,happy.....
this is one of the person who can really feel it in deep...!!
Really touching....
I really appreciated to my own  god....
given me such a wonderful...person...!!
For me .....this person...really really useful and wonderful....!!
no matter what happen I will stand the right to care for this person..!!


Hopefully.....after Chinese New Year....!!
Everything will go smooth....
And hope not to have any vexed..that make my head ....pain!!
really hate to swallow all the medicine.....which I stopped longtime ago...!!


Really hope to calm myself down....
May happiness  bring  me up 1 day....

To have my sweet smile back....!!
 ^_^
明天会更好！！