Thinking back some of the memories!!

Life is so wonderful...!
sometimes when I sitting alone...
I will think back how wonderful is my life...
The answer will be only 2....
"Happy n unhappy"
Maybe a lot of people think that I m so happy ....
But the answer is..."no"
Because I have my burden , pressure and worrying...!
That's why I try very hard in these 2 - 3 years to change my attitude...
To change attitude is very hard because I need to accept whatever things that I can't accept...
But no choice...because this is our life...




Sitting down almost an hour...
Thinking back about my job for this few years...
Really appreciated to have all my students sharing their problem with me.
And really appreciated to the students always believe in me...
But sad to say I really do not know whether I help them out or not..
I tell to myself don't to be too control to them because I know some of them will not accept what I did to them...
But as my responsibility I have no choice by doing what they did not like....
I have trying my very best to change myself....
just because I wish to act in concert with my students...
I really don't know whether I using this way is true or false...
Maybe some will think that I am a teacher who is too over...
But maybe some can accept what I did...




Now I only know that being a teacher will not that easy...
Sometimes thinking to be "quit"...
But really not willing to do that...
Because with some of the students who really appreciated what I did to them make me really not willing to " quit "
I am thinking to quit just because I am getting hurt by some of my students...n I m so tired with this job
When I get hurt by their speaking...
I m telling myself ..they are not intentional...
With my explanation to myself...maybe I can calm the feeling of myself...
But I will not angry with them..
Because I hope 1 day they will understand what they did is “erroneous".
Actually I write this blog is to calm my feeling down without any meaning to anyone who see this blog...
Because I really can't speak out and feel really unhappy in my heart almost day by day.
That's why I m choosing this way to share out just trying to get away my unhappy feeling...
Haizz~~~~~!!


If I have a choice...
I wish to be a child...
with the feeling of love from my mother and father...
How good is the feeling....
But is too late.....
Sometimes will feel regret ...
Without my much care to them...they already leave...
Really hope my mother can come back one day....
With her scolding.....I really appreciated...because without her scolding...I will not that mature enough.... THX ...my mum...u are so wonderful!!
Wish to have you to be my mother in my next life!!
My last present for my birthday from my mum is a "dog"...my dog's name is " Wang Wang"
Really thx to my mum giving me a such present...!!
I will really take care of it...!!




Still remember...when I had any problem in my job...
I always share with my mum...
Sleeping together in her room and chatting together....
whatever things we can share together.....
Her smile is so kind...n ...beautiful...!!
I will never forget!!
Mum hopefully you will happy too...!!
Really looking back... to hope that you will still be here so that I will not that unhappy because I can share with u ......
Now I have to be brave without u....!!




Thank You so much !!  ^_^